I had a really pleasant time with you. Though it's already 6 a.m now, thoughts of you are keeping myself awake. It's been a while since we last got together and laughed at silly remarks, making a fool out of ourselves. Hearing your voice, your laughter and looking at your sweet smile made it all worthwhile. There were many things that I would like to share with you about, but the time and place were not really suitable for it.

I know I'm always the quiet one, the one who speaks only a few words. Bearing in mind about the past, our past, it makes it even harder to be how we once were. Carefree and cheerful. I know it's impossible to pretend that what happened between us never did. In fact, I'm really grateful that it happened. You left me and left with a sweet memory that I still hold dearly and closely to my heart. Bringing up the past to you might cause an uneasy feeling among us, that's why I just leave it untouched and maybe it will fade away. At times I didn't even pay attention to your presence but in truth, I really wished I could hold you close and look straight into your eyes. But stealing glances from the corner of my eye is all I could do whenever you're not around me.

Holding your hand is now just a wishful thinking. I wasn't even ready to let go of you and the heart-breaking moment came a little too soon. I still remember how it feels like to hold your hands. Kissing it was how I showed you how lucky I was to have you, just to myself. Although it was only a short period of time, exchanging sweet nothings when we were alone was even special to me because chances like that don't come by often. That's what made me appreciate those moments even more. I still look at the small bottle of stars you folded for me everyday. It's one of only a few things I have that reminds me that you once cared deeply for me. One of the few things that reminds me how deeply in love we were back then. The sparkling colourful stars are just merely folded papers to me. You were the brightest star ever to shine in my life. That was what I wanted to tell you to let you know how important you were to me.

Once in a while I had sleepless nights thinking about you. Though I no longer feel as eager as I was when it comes to meeting you, your presence alone was enough to awake the ghosts of our past in my mind. Those empty and pointless little conversations were just to amuse you and make you laugh. Because I love to see you smile. Silly things that I've done, just to see you smile. It has always been a pleasant feeling whenever I see you smiling away happily. Feels like the other things in the world don't matter anymore. I could spend the whole day just looking at you, staring back at me with the feelings we once had for each other.

Before leaving the place not long ago, I felt tired because it was getting late. But at the same time, I reluctantly stepped out of the house because I wanted to see you longer. I didn't say goodbye to you. Still hate the feeling of saying goodbye to you until today. I wonder how long still do I have to keep pretending. I really don't want to lie to myself about how I have been feeling all this while. At this very moment, you are the only person who is worth my time, my tears and perhaps my life.


All I really wanted to say to you is....


I miss you, wholeheartedly and painfully. I miss you so much....

It was only about four days ago that the devilish author of this blog, which is I, had turned 22. Twenty two freakin' years have passed and I still feel like I'm only eighteen. Anyway, in commemoration of twenty two years of sinful acts and countless insults hurled at numerous people around me, I have bought a new pendant for myself.




While hanging out with a couple of buddies at Prangin Mall last Saturday, we strolled past this shop named Laconic. So I decided to drop by and see what was in store lately. It's not that I don't know what this shop deals in. I know exactly what that shop is all about since I have had some memorable but wallet-bursting experience as a customer of its metallic accessories for few years now. I stopped going into that place for quite a long time, until recently. Not because the pendants that were on display were getting more and more uninteresting for my liking. It's because there were far too many cool looking pendants that I couldn't stop my obsession towards those glittering pendants. If I had not control myself I would have been broke regularly. Even doubt if I could survive till the middle of the month.



So there I was standing before sets of collections of crystals-embedded pendants. I regretted the moment I looked at those, because I knew I was going to fork out a large sum of cash for something just as long as my index finger, probably shorter. Of course, as usual I didn't bring enough cash to get something I wanted. So on the following Monday afternoon, I set out to get that pendant to fulfill my insane metallic obsession... for the time being. While going through those delicately designed pendants, I felt like I was blinded by their colouful crystals. *LoL* I had a hard time choosing the one that I truly like and was feeling a bit uneasy as the salesgirl was just in front of me, standing by to assist me. The twenty minutes of picking a pendant to bring home seemed like hours. Yeah, it was indeed a difficult choice to make when you're spoilt for choices of things you obsess.


Great, now that I've forked out almost a hundred bucks for that one single pendant I must... stay.. away.. from that place. But I seriously doubt it. Chinese New Year is just around the corner :-D Those who celebrate it know exactly what I'm talking about. *winks* Possibly another pendant coming my way? Maybe. Perhaps. Somebody please stop me!!



To get a picture of what I've seen on that day, proceed to this site: E-Laconic.com To the metallic maniacs out there like me, if you have a girlfriend and are running out of ideas on what to get on Valentine's Day, check out the couple's pendants. Here are some that I found it to be sweet and simple.





Alright I really need to stop here before my obsession starts to take over me again. Laconic has a Demonic curse on me. But honestly speaking, I simply enjoy it. *evil grin*